last night i had a dream that
i was 
driving.
it was dark but it was day
and i was 
alone.
and the road was
winding.
and the car was too
large
for me to control but
i was going 
fast, and


i sped up the more twisted it got
and i could feel my mind
disconnecting from my core
i was
slipping
i was
driving
off the roads 
and i enjoyed 
the feeling
of losing
control.


today i am in the air
i cannot see the ground over the wing
and the sky is blue and
i am in a 
glass bulb of sky
and i am out of
control.


last night i had a dream that
i had lost control and
woke with a start 
for my enjoyment
of my loss
of my self
was my nightmare.